PPD or baby blues

So I’m experiencing something.

I’m overwhelmed (even though baby girl is really good. Doesn’t cry much )

I have two older kids

I’m BF and pumping , I have a fever from

Something , and I’m just generally feeling sad and overwhelmed.

My husband is so adamant about me BF her and I don’t want to do it anymore because emotionally I can’t. I spend every hour doing it and I can’t even enjoy her

He gets mad if I tell him I want to stop and just do formula. Which is BS bc my other kids had formula

All I want to do is cry cry cry. I’ve been cooped up here since my 37 week of pregnancy. My boobs hurt, my c section scar hurts. My house is a mess. I don’t know what to do