So I had my first Lap back in August. My doctor removed an endometrioma (sp?) that was the size of a grapefruit from my left ovary. He also cleaned out the endo that was starting to grow on my left and right ovaries. He told my husband and I that there was no reason we shouldn’t conceive naturally within a few months bc my tubes weren’t blocked and my uterus was normal and healthy. We have been trying and doing everything we can (OPKS, temping, BD on every fertile day). We’ve had NO luck. I think the worst part is knowing that you have this disease and that’s why it is taking longer. You see so many women who are normal and healthy just falling pregnant and you think “why can’t that be me”. You envy them because they don’t know the fear and emotional damage that comes with KNOWING something is “wrong” with you. I’ve really taken this time the last few months to lean on my faith that God has a plan and he knows what is in our hearts. He knows how badly we all want these beautiful little miracle babies. It’s not in our time. It’s in HIS time. Though the journey is hard and long and emotionally scarring, the end, holding that little miracle, will be all worth it.

This is for all of us who question “why me?” Or more so “why NOT me?” For those of us who feel like we are drowning and just trying to stay afloat. For all of us who know that no matter how painful every month with a negative is, we hold on to the hope and belief that our miracle is on its way. Stay strong. Stay hopeful. God’s blessings come to those who stay faithful and hopeful and devoted to His will and His plan. God bless you all and I hope we all get our BFPs soon.