Want to give up

6 months TTC and just got my period. I got so hopeful this cycle because I didn’t spot before af and I always do. Now I just feel like a fool. TTC is such a mind fuck to put it bluntly and I’m really starting to just be over it. I don’t even want to talk to my friends that all have kids right now especially the ones that got pregnant by accident twice. I just feel so bitter.

If my husband says ‘ stop obsessing’ one more time I’m going to scream. I really don’t know how not to. I’m the one in my body every day paying attention to every little thing and if I didn’t do that then I wouldn’t have started b complex and lengthened my luteal phase. Ughhhh