As much as i wanna enjoy this pregnancy i cant!! 😩 i had a stillborn in February and i just hit 20 weeks yesterday. I was excited but i just couldn’t stay that way I’m so nervous going through this pregnancy. Sometimes i cry myself to sleep and it doesn’t help that i have crazy dreams. One dream i had my baby at 19 weeks and held him in my hand while he was still alive in my bedroom 😩😩 then last night i had a dream which was a repeat of them telling me my baby has no heartbeat .. I’m just so scared And wishing these next weeks go by quick