Feeling oddly at peace

I wasn't sure where to post this... but here goes....

My husband and I have been trying to conceive since January. Late January I suffered a chemical pregnancy and at the end of June I suffered a miscarriage after only knowing for about a week that I was pregnant. We tried a lot of different things from supplements we both took, teas and pre-seed.

As we come to the end of November with no pregnancy or rainbow baby I find myself oddly at peace with it. Normally I'm heartbroken over having not gotten a BFP but now I'm just kind of meh about it. I'm not sure why or how this happened but I am grateful for it. I'm less stressed now. I do feel it may eventually happen but now I'm okay if it doesn't happen. We've built a wonderful life together and he accepts my 2 children who aren't biologically his. We talked about it and he's okay with it too if it doesn't happen.