I can’t take it anymore 😢

I think I have hit rock bottom with my 4.5 week old baby. from the beginning I had a lot of pain bf. sore nipples, bleeding and had to express to relieve the pain. My left nipple improved after 1.5 week but my right breast aerola and nipple stayed super sore like sand paper and burning.

Doc thought it could either be trush or veso spasm. Have been treated for trush but meds didn’t help so they think it probably wasn’t trush now. Have start using nipple shields which helps a little but I feel she doesn’t get enough milk and she gets very frusterated and fussy with the shield.

Now she has started cluster feeding and I am feeding her 3 to 4 hours two times a day and all other times it takes at least an hour to feed her. I am stuck in the bedroom all day and don’t have time to make lunch whilst being in agony and pain. This is really so hard.

I am now thinking to maybe do mixed feeding with formula so i can at least get some sleep and relief from bf. Other mums as well as doctors make me feel guilty of even thinking of doing this and feel like a horrible mum but I am about to lose it and starting to become very depressed.. :(