Cant Masturbate The Way I Used To

last summer i went on a date with one of my coworkers, and before he drove me home he started getting very touchy when i wasnt comfortable with it and didn’t stop even when i held his hands back or turned away from him. im 18 and have never had a boyfriend or had sex and i did not want to with this guy. he kept pinning my hands down and touching me, and i was really nervous because i didn’t know where he was gonna stop. luckily he quit when i told him my mom would get mad if i got home too late but he still kept trying to feel up my thigh on the drive back. overall a very scary experience.

since then it’s been a lot harder for me to masturbate. i usually fantasize about something sexy but since that happened, sexy stuff just grosses me out and i don’t even want to think about it. i can still orgasm but the mental part of it isn’t there, which sucks because i used to really enjoy masturbating and it’s not as pleasurable now.

im wondering if any of you are experiencing the same thing or if you have in the past? will this get better with time?

thank you ladies in advance!