I’m jealous and feel sorry for it.

Rant and Apologies:

I see all you beautiful women out there announcing pregnancies and showing baby pictures; and while YES I am SO happy for you.. I’m pissed and annoyed. I have been trying for two years to conceive after making the family plan to do so with my SO to no avail. Now that I think of it.. it’s going on 3. I’m kinda getting the idea that something is wrong and know that our options are limited due to costs 🙄🙄 (Don’t lecture me about funds. I’m a business owner and have plenty of money to support a child just not pay 5gs to start in ‘HOPES’ of getting pregnant) I have a beautiful 4 year old Daughter who’s my light and she talks about having a younger sibling. Tells me she’s lonely and wants someone to play with, The whole family (Me-SO-and child) feel the strain.. I am so angry that I can’t have a baby while fucking infants seem to be dropping out of other women. I’m hurt, sad, depressed, and angry. And.. I’m sorry. But please know I am happy for you.

— Babyless