Miscarried almost a month ago

So I miscarried my baby on 11/11/2018; I just had my first period since than I brought up to my husband about trying again and he doesn’t want to right not at all. I understand his point but how I feel he over looks it. He doesn’t understand the envy I have towards women who are pregnant or just about to give birth or have newborns; as much as I can’t control it; I don’t hate them it’s a beautiful thing a woman’s body can do, I always dreamed to have a large family because I come from one. It hurts to see women have 3,4,5 kids without issues and I lost two this time it was harder than the last I have two beautiful daughters who ask everyday for a baby brother who they could of had possibly if we didn’t miscarry, am I wrong for wanting to try or should I respect him completely and wait till he is ready. His exact reason as to why he don’t want to try again is because he’s not emotionally ready and he doesn’t want to go through another loss; as I might add and not sounding like a bitch when I miscarried I was alone he wasn’t home he was out of town for work I delivered my baby and held my baby in my hands until I called my sister to come over and sit with me. Yes he lost a baby too but he wasn’t there at all 😭😭😭😭😭😭💔💔💔 what should I honestly do? And no I don’t want to get pregnant to replace the baby I lost no one or anything will replace that sweet baby of mine