I'm thinking about having an abortion

This is my fourth pregnancy, I've never had an abortion or misscariage. I'm 10weeks . me and my husband ttc this baby but I was the one who really wanted another baby. I had to talk him into it, he's not excited he never talks about it and I'm just feeling like this was a bad idea, I'm worried about the future, finances, going back to work with a baby.. I'm just lost and don't know what to do. I'm going to add this anonymous because I don't want anyone in my pregnancy group to see it