relationships 🤧

okay y’all, this is going to be long and complicated. i apologize in advance.

just to give y’all somewhat of a background... soo, my mama has a older friend named Mary, and she’s always went for younger guys. She bribes them with money, clothes, new phones, etc. Well, she’s always had a problem with me (iam 18 and she’s 54), and always kept me and my mama into it. She’s tried to have me and my mama arrested on false allegations and she’s just crazy as hell.

mary was talking to a dude around my age who had a ‘crush’ on me, for awhile. and of course i didn’t go for it at first. i curved him for the longest time and then one day something just came over me and i texted him back, gave him my number, and it started from there.

it went on about three or four months and i kept backing out within the whole time of us talking or whatever, we went on a date once but other than that i could only see him every once in a while because i constantly work. he didn’t like that we couldn’t see each other more often. i used to buy his cigarettes and food and just give him money. when we first started getting into talking he told me he got hurt and was wrote out of work, then that lead up to him getting fired. I didn’t really think that much of it, but then the other side of me was ‘bitch he lying, he ain’t ever had a job to begin with’ 🤔 and i pushed that thought aside cause i was kinda feeling a vibe with him. we started talking about our pasts and telling each other our life stories, and GIRLL his life has been far from the best. but so was mine so that was something we related on. idkk i likes him. he knew me and that was strange cause i didn’t really open up to him (that was another thing that bothered him) but i wanted too! i really did!

y’all i honestly thought i loved him and it’s been three months (maybe) that we’ve been apart and he calls me randomly just to talk to me and stuff. mainly talk about the reason i cut it off with him.

i cut things off with him because i started to get the feeling that i was being used and his feelings wasn’t as real as he claimed they were. and i ain’t ever been in a real relationship so idk how to really tell.😪 but i would peep shit that this girl that ik (keep this in mind y’all, she’s nascar FAST, she’s known to hop from dick to dick) hes has something to do with before was all on his fb page and liking and reacting to all his stuff, and we talked about how i felt about it so he knew how i felt and one night i seen her post something that he tells me all the time with this emoji 👀 and i just felt like that proved everything 😐 and yeah i know that sounds crazy as hell.

but after we broke things off, we went our separate ways and it’s been like three months since we’ve been together and i can’t stop thinking about him. he’s called me multiple times since then and i answer sometimes. he called me about a week ago but all the last three times he’s called ive either been asleep, working, or something just made me not wanna answer. but i check his page to make sure he ain’t with nobody or anything, ig i still got something still for him idkk 😞 but can someone please talk to me about this. i really can’t stop thinking about it. i need some advice

ps:: ima virgin and he knows that idk if that helps at all but just a lil fwi ❤️ thank you lovely’s &&& mary and him had something going on in between them at one point in time 🤮