Christmas

My bf and I have been together for 3.5 years. 2 weeks ago I got into a car accident and totaled my car. Anyways my bf lives 35-40 minutes from me and every year for Christmas I go to his house for his family Christmas party but I always drive myself.. I don’t have a car right now so he would have to pick me up. When I asked him he didn’t really seem like he would want to cause of how far I live and having to drive back and forth so he told me he’s disappointed but I could just come to other family things when I get a car...do I have a right to be disappointed??