Idk how I should fee😕😕

My sister in law just gave birth to my niece prematurely In my moms car. We helped deliver the baby, she’s very healthy and they get to come home today. I can’t help but feel a little sad, because my husband and I have been trying g for baby #2 for over 8 months and nothing has happened yet. Not even a late period or anything. My most fertile week was the last week of November 27-3 of December. It’s been about 10 days since I ovulated and I’ve taken 2 pregnancy test and both negative. Now I know it’s a bit early, but I’m supposed to start my period in 6 days and I’m dreading it cause I really want this baby to happen for my husband and I. I’m very happy my niece was born and I love her to pieces but I want my own baby again. I’ve been trying for a minute now and nothing has happened. I feel discouraged. I feel helpless a little bit. And anxious because I just know my period will be here in 6 days. But here is a picture of my niece. Isn’t she so cute❤️❤️❤️❤️ o