So Hurt

Hubby’s motility is low which we found out after an ectopic last Jan. and trying to conceive ever since with no luck. All my test have come back good and I have 3 boys from previous. Anyway, he says he really wants a baby together but I told him the cigarettes (which he was trying to quit before the SA test results), and smoking pot each night before bed have to stop. He said he was quitting them and cutting back on alcohol and has started taking FertilAid supplements but tonight he went and smoked pot again - and he did last night too!! I am not even mad just so hurt and disappointed. I feel like it’s just not worth it to him or he doesn’t take any of it seriously. I told him I don’t want to experience another ectopic and I was lucky to not lose my tubes and he knows how badly I want this but I’m just heartbroken right now. Am I being too dramatic or am I right to feel this way?