I need support

The past couple weeks I have found myself creating a bad habit. I have been binging and purging. I want to talk to my SO about it get some support from him but I don't even know how to go about telling him. I know I shouldn't be doing this and i know how dumb it is. I just really hate my body after having a child and gaining so much weight and gaining more after going on birth control. I'm desperate to lose weight and lose it quickly so I can bare to look at myself in the mirror again.

Any suggestions on how to go about bringing it up to my SO? I feel so stupid and weak and just want some sort of support 😞