I was in an abusive relationship...

Two years ago I rushed to the ER because I was having such bad pains I couldn’t walk.. there, I had to give blood tests. I got told I was pregnant. My child was with me. A few days later it was discovered It was ectopic.:

A week after that my tube was being to rupture. My child was with me and I began to bleed, and again drove to the ER. I lost my right tube.

My child told everyone at school their brother was an angel.

The following summer I had a miscarriage...this time my child did not know.

I left my ex and a little while after met my wonderful husband.

I’m currently TTC with my husband.. and I’m full of so many emotions.

My child has stated they don’t want a sister or brother, they just want to be my only baby. Y’all.. my child can do complicated math 😂 but oh that guilt washed over me.

They have been my only baby for so long.

I’m also super nervous trying, due to exotic and miscarriage.. and now, age. I hear 30s are harder, is there any stock in that?

I’ve also never tried to conceive.. and my emotions are ALL over

I am so emotional this week.. and it’s my ovulation week.