I kissed my best friend

Y’all I kissed my best friend....

We’ve always talked about it, and having sex. We hangout and my friends house one night. And we stayed up to watch a movie. Half way through I made the move to kiss him. He seemed to enjoy it. (By the way I’ve always liked him but I looked passed him not liking me the same way and was glad that we were friends regardless ) he stayed until the movie ended. When he was leaving we said we loved eachother like we always did. Whether it be over texting or in person. And he hadn’t texted me for a few days which is weird because we always text. So I told him that we should just pretend it never happened..... and still nothing. Like I don’t feel bad for kissing him because he had taken part in it by saying he wants too. But I don’t know....

Please if you’re gonna tell me I’m stupid. Don’t. Keep it to yourself. Thanks!!