Question about Disability SSI (if anyone has any info for me)

I have severe anxiety.. it’s only gotten worse being Postpartum (5 months) and to find out I am pregnant with baby #2.

I’m only 19. I literally cannot work.. I can’t keep a job. I literally get panic attacks so severe I’ll cry and shake.. not be able to breathe. I have gone to the ER for it before.. I can barely leave my house. I even had a skype interview over the phone and I chickened out... ugh. No medications have been able to work for me. I have an appt on Janauary 10th with my psychiatrist .

I literally didn’t go to my last appt and put it off BECAUSE of my anxiety. It’s really bad..

I really think being on SSI disability is my only choice for some kind of income. I live in income based housing already.. my boyfriend is fully capable of working.. is actively looking for work. I just feel so embarrassed because of my problem.. i’ve tried SOOO many medications its insane.. nothing helps or I have severe side effects.. I am deff going to bring it up to my dr when I see her again.. I’ve had this problem for years. Even spent months in a residential treatment facility @ 16-17 years old ..

i feel hopeless. I hate being broke.. i have worked for maybe 3 years total with my old jobs... but i cant get myself to be the same .. i could maybe work from home.. but idk what kind of jobs options there is. I dont have social media so any of that isnt an option.

Advice?