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amanda β€’ Mommy two angels πŸ‘ΌπŸ»

You know I’m just so tired of trying to fill that hole in my heart πŸ’” that has been ripped out twice because of my stupid body. I hate myself so much for losing both my children. I feel like such a fuck up because I was supposed to protect them. Now I sit here and watch everyone else have kids and get pregnant with no problem and in my heart it feels like god hates me and likes to watch me hurt and cry over both my miscarriage. I’m tryin to hard to keep it together but I’m slowly falling apart. My depression and anxiety has gone so worse since this last miscarriage to be honest I don’t think I could do it again. I hope and pray I never have to go through it again because I’m promising you I won’t be the same again. I will shutdown for good.