Depression while pregnant...

I am almost 18 weeks pregnant with my first baby. Ever since I hit the second trimester, I have been going through a depression stage. I’ve never had depression before, and this is causing anxiety for me as well because I have absolutely nothing to be depressed about.

I’m worried that this is affecting my baby in a bad way and I want to get help but I’m so afraid of being judged by anyone I tell so I have kept it to myself, I haven’t even told my boyfriend. I am going to bring it up at my next doctors appt but I’m just scared.

I guess I’m just ranting but I just feel like there is this dark cloud following me wherever I go... even if I think I’m having a good day, my brain will just go into a different place and I can’t get out of that mood. I also used to smoke (cigarettes) before I found out I was pregnant and immediately stopped when I found out but this is making me want to pick one up again. I definitely won’t, but I just can’t seem to get myself out of this hole.

Has anyone been through this and have some advice? I already know I need to get some help and I plan on it but if anyone has some other suggestions that may help from day to day.