Too much thinking

EVerytime my boyfriend does something for somebody it upsets me.. I feel like he puts me last.. like I have a lot of thoughts in my head about he feels about me. But I’m trying this new thing where I keep my thoughts to myself and not go crazy on him.. because he calls it me going through an episode..

but I don’t want to stick around in a relationship where I feel he doesn’t want to be..

so should I just stick it out calm down and let him show me then if he doesn’t then make the necessary moves to move on or just move on if I seem un happy.. but I do what to be wit him but slot of thoughts go through my mind..

I also feel that when I stop dealing wit people or stop speaking to friends they seem to be doing better then when they were dealing with me it’s like idk how to explain it.,