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Hi everyone! So I’ve had two miscarriages 1 at 4 weeks pregnant (March 2015) and the other at 8 although the baby stopped growing around 5 or 6 weeks (April 2018). I have been experiencing cramping on my right side, low in my uterus, and in my left hip/pelvis area. I wasn’t going to test because I just KNEW it was going to be negative because it feels like AF is on her way but i decided to test anyways before i took a Midol just in case and i see a VFP. I’m currently 10 dpo and have had these cramps since 2dpo but i refuses to test ( I used to be a poas junkie). Please give me any advise and or positive experience cues you ladies have had!