I just want to be pretty...

My self-esteem is in the shitter right now. I feel like I was SO sexy before I got pregnant. I'm 70lbs heavier. Everything is swollen (feet, hands, ears). My face is pale and scaley with two black and blue eyes from not sleeping. My skin is a mess and moisturizing 3x a day isn't even helping. I can't remember the last time SO and I had sex.

This is my third pregnancy but my self esteem has NEVER been this bad. I feel like poo. I keep looking at pics of myself and crying. I feel he doesn't want me because of how ugly I've become. And then I get to feeling selfish because of these feeling and it makes me feel even worse.

Help mamas 😭