I am 25 weeks pregnant with two and going strong, or so i thought. I went to my special maternal fetal medicine doctor for a routine ultra sound and cervix check to find that my resting length is 1.7 and my pushing length is 0.8. They have put me on bedrest and told me i am at a very high risk of delivering within the next two weeks. I am scared out of my mind, an absolute emotional wreck. They had me do a betamethasone acetate steriod shot to help develop the babies lungs just in case they are born within the next few days in hopes that they will be able to breathe on their own.

Theh have also given me progesterone capsuals to insert vaginally to hopefully keep my cervix from shortening more. What the doctorc dont tell you however, is that these pills are RED. Which means you have pink/red discharge which is not any type of peace of mind at all when you're alreasy freaking out that you could potentially go into labor at any moment. They also don't tell you that an unlisted side effect of vaginal insertion of this med is cramping. The nurse i got in contact with told me it would feel like pre-period cramping. Which is the same cramping ive been described to about the beginnings of labor. Which is also a HUGE relief for someone thats scared theyre going to go into preterm labor....not.

I get to go back to the specialist on monday 12/31 to measure my cervix again, if it's any shorter i will be put into the hospital for close monitoring!

Im scared im going to loose my job. I mean for full term if this bedrest and medication helps i could potentially be on leave for 4 months plus recoop time after these babies come. Also with me not working, and after the medical leave pay time is up, we will not be able to afford our home and will have to find someone to live with. We planned for all scenarios, just didn't plan for it to become this serious this soon.

Im scared im going to loose my babies. Weve come so far, but if they're born to early they may not survive. I just want everything to be okay. Lord be with us.