Today is the day

I was engaged and in an abusive relationship. I left/moved out and he continued to be in my life. He almost killed me and threatened suicide and to kill me. I stayed. I broke things off and moved across the country. He continued to snake himself into my life. Recently he got to be very sweet and it hurt so much to hear him say the things I’ve been waiting for him to say for two years. The first year we were together he was so sweet but that’s how they get you. He finally got mad at me for not wanting to work on things (I wonder why I know what happens after the nice period). He “broke up” with me (we never were back together) and blocked my number. It’s been four days and he hasn’t tried to contact me. I actually feel strong enough this time to keep him blocked and to not check if he’s messaged me. In my new state I’ve met a caring man who has everything I’ve dreamed of in a man. He wants to communicate openly and wants to take care of me. Today is the day I’m going to focus on a better future and leave me ex in the dust and I hope he does the same. I’m currently packing up every item that makes me think of him or gifts he’s given me. I’m going to throw them all in a box in our outside closet for now and will donate them when our lease is up. I really hope this is the end. My prayer for 2019 is to make myself strong and whole again. To live without constant fear and to take care of myself first. I can’t wait to see the man I met again tomorrow when he gets home from his family holiday. For once I won’t be hesitant about what I actually want. Today my life starts again. Happy New Years ladies. I appreciate people who have supported me on here and the stories of women who got out that inspired me. Thank you.

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