Celebrating New Year, my little 3 week and some days old human and I... family and friends are here too

I’m a drinker. A social drinker. I love wine and sweet fruity drinks. Tonight I’m unsure if to stay away or to indulge but I’m mostly choosing the former.

On Christmas eve my periods should have come.

Something happened but nothing as per usual. I never miss. I usually experience my periods for 5-8 days painful and very heavy bleeding but not this time. Something showed up a moment, brief, of pinkish discharge ( as per usual a sign when my periods arrive) the pre menstrual cramps and mild diarrhea came and that was it. It’s as if the diarrhea replaced the bleeding.

Boxing Day, Dec 26th I couldn’t smell food. I hardly ate lunch and the cramps and mild diarrhea continued.

No bleeding yet. I wondered how come my lining was not shedding.

On the night of the 29th I took a pregnancy test my man bought for me. There were two lines within the first minute the first dark and the second the faintest thing. I was so skeptical

I couldn’t watch it dead on.

It tested positive according to my obgyn whom I sent a photo to in shock disbelief

and seeking confirmation.

Tonight I’m still not certain I’ve got a little human, a miracle I knew I wanted ever since I knew myself and one that we’ve been trying for since last year.

Tonight I’m drinking coffee mixed w hot chocolate. Like I said I am a social drinker so I’m out at a family New Years Lime/ party and everyone is drinking drinks I’d usually enjoy, drinks I’m currently craving and I’m happy here taking every precaution because I’m hopeful and with a little human.

I needed someone to talk to cause as you guys know it’s not the time to make any announcements to anyone really... let’s keep this between the 4 of us... me, my man, our God and you.

Happy new year!