My DH has three kids from his previous marriage. I’m incredibly lucky that over the last four years we’ve built a great, loving relationship. And they are thrilled about a little baby boy joining our blended family at the end of the month. We have his kids almost every weekend and they’re always a bit disappointed their brother hasn’t arrived yet!

But as I lay here next to my DH, following a rare (and probably last ever) “kid-free weekend”, I can’t help but think how wonderful it would be just to have our family of three. Just me and my boys.

No weekends to share. No previous experiences to hear about. No comments from his ex wife passed innocently through the mouths of their children. Just my little, simple, family of three.

Feeling guilty and can’t say this to anyone. But needed to get it off my chest. Thanks for listening.