I just kind of lost it on my friend. I only have two friends and I think I just ruined that. I feel sick to my stomach and on the verge of tears.. again. I am extremely insecure and I overreact. I respond to things very childishly but I don’t know how else to be. I’m always afraid they don’t like me. I hate that I feel like the pathetic loser who is left out all the time. I feel like they just spend their day talking without me and it makes me feel so shitty. I hate myself and I hate that I just ruined the only friendships I had.