My new year.

So in the ending of November I found out I was pregnant. Me and my husband had be trying for the full 5 years we have been together. We got to see our precious angel last week. The doctor couldn’t see the heart beat, he told us it was normal with early pregnancy and don’t be worried to come back 1/3/19 and we would check for the heart beat. Well, on 12/31/19 at 8:30pm I start bleeding. So I rushed to the er to be told at 12:01am on 1/1/19 I had started the miscarriage process. I went back to the obgyn on 1/3/19 for my doctor to tell me the baby hasn’t grown but one day since my ultrasound the week before. So I now am lost for words. This is my fourth miscarriage and I don’t even want to try anymore. The doctor said we were going to do blood test and many other test to figure out why my body can’t hold a baby. But I am at lose for words.