Another period..

Feeling pretty down today. At 9dpo I got a positive. But I just couldn't believe it. Especially since it was with an off brand test and a lot of women on here have been saying they were faulty. So I got a box of first response and I prayed it would come back positive, sadly it was a bfn. I kept the hope alive that maybe it's still too early. I'll wait and see if my period comes. I was estimated to start on the 6th but normally my periods come early. Sure enough its here today.

I just want to go cry in a dark hole. I had the mirena for a little over a year. I got it removed in Spetember and have been trying since. December was the first actual month my husband and I had sex like crazy during my peak. I thought for sure this would be it. With our first child I was able to get pregnant on the nuva ring!! Like how is it that I get pregnant on birth control and now here I am with nothing and can't. And it sucks cause majority of the time my husband is away for work when I am ovulating. Not to mention my family constantly brings up how we need to have another, or they ask when the next will come. And I just want to scream at all them. WE ARE FREAKING TRYING!!! It tears me down. I want another one so bad. I want one close to my sons age. When is it going to be my turn again. Why is it taking so long. I hate this feeling.