A couple of months ago, I tried to commit suicide. I had done something stupid, and my own mother honestly telling me that I was manipulative, and a liar, was just too much. I tried to drown myself in the bathtub. I, of course, didn't succeed, but now I have a lot of anxiety about my upcoming swim lessons. They're trying to teach me how to swim with my face it the water, and then breath once my face it turned to the side. The problem is, because of what happened, I panic, and start breathing in water. Not to mention that the rest of the people in the class are half my age. I don't know what to do.

I talk to my school counseler, but I don't tell her the real reason I'm scared of water. She knows I almost drowned, but I told her a different reason why. If she knew what I'd tried to do, she would tell my parents. They don't think that I could possibly have mental health issues, because nothing tramatic has ever happened to me.