I had been for 9 months with my baby daddy when we found out I was expecting, right after that everything went downhill with the psychological abuse, I feel lucky somehow that he didn’t hurt me physically but man oh man it’s been so hard so go on with my life after what I lived with him, he made sure my pregnancy was a nightmare, he used to manipulate even how I dressed, who I hanged out with, all my free time had to be with him, he’d manage my money, I was trapped in that relationship and I made so many excuses for him, I was so in love I wanted so hard to have a happy family, big wedding... but it got to a point that it was so obvious that people surrounding us started getting worried about me, I was in denial, eventually I opened my eyes and left him, he went crazy... threatened to kill himself he got admitted into the hospital for that, he started harassing me at home and work so I got a temporary protection order, unfortunately the judge didn’t grant the order on the grounds of “not enough evidence” for her psychological abuse wasn’t enough.... my daughter is now almost 4 month and he hasn’t showed up, which is great.... but I feel so bad that he’s missing out on our daughter and I’m so torn about if I want him in her life or not, I mean he was a prince to me until he stopped being it if you know what I mean... I’ve been in and out of therapy this whole time, had PPD. I don’t know what to do of feel or anything :( it’s horrible