Everyday just feels more difficult?

As time goes on, things usually become easier to deal with.

But I’m just becoming more and more upset and agitated. I miscarried at 3 months along, 3 days before my partner and I planned to reveal it to everyone. It wasn’t a planned pregnancy but even before my pregnancy I was so maternal.

My partner doesn’t want kids for another 5 years which adds to my levels of agitation. I was so good during my pregnancy, taking my medications and prenatal vitamins daily without fail. Now I can’t even take my antidepressants consistently (which I was on before pregnancy for a couple years).

My health, mental and physical, was absolutely perfect while pregnant and it all went to shit again. I was so, so constantly happy and my chronic brittle asthma was so well controlled.

I honestly cannot handle these feelings anymore. My psychologist moved clinics and I don’t have her contact information to continue speaking to her. I haven’t seen her since before my miscarriage (15th Dec).

I keep telling my partner I can’t handle feeling like this anymore but he doesn’t get it. He keeps saying ‘everything will be okay’.

I’m just so stuck in this shitty headspace and I don’t even know what I’m going to do. I’m so constantly agitated and I’m getting so snappy that I’m pushing people out. I don’t mean to, it’s just happening. I just want it all to stop.