Ok so i’m going to put this in caps this time bc clearly despite me asking nicely in my last post, people can’t listen or read.

I ASK THAT YOU PLZ DONT COMMENT ‘Masturbation isn’t a sin!” BC IT IS IN MY FAITH; THE CATHOLIC FAITH. IM ASKING MY QUESTIONS TOWARDS PPL WHO R OF THE SAME FAITH AS ME. THANK YOU.

So my mom and I had an argument yesterday kibd of on the topic of sex and her thinking it sounded like i wanted to do it b4 marriage bc of a convo me and my friend were having on the phone, although my mom didn’t hear all of it, i got all upset bc i felt like she didn’t trust me even though she does and she said that she was just saying it sounded like I wanted to from me and my friend’s convo. Then I realized deep down that really how could she trust me if I wAs thinking about it? Of course I didn’t tell her I was thinking about it, kind of more what it would be like than actually doing it, but still. I didn’t tell her bc then she actually wouldn’t trust me. Therefore, I decided I’m really going to try and stop masturbating and thinking about having premarital sex, especially after she told me, “I hope your dad and I raised you better than that.” I just feel like if I keep masturbating I’m more likely to fall into the action of actually eventually having sex before marriage and Screwing my life up bc I was stupid. I’ve tried to stop b4 but it’s addicting like a drug. I really plan to go to confession at school whenever it’s available again and really try to rid me of this mortal sin once and for all.

I just feel like, if I keep falling into the same sin, even tho I try not to, am I even trying to give my life to god? Do I actually love him? Does he see that I AM trying despite me falling? My main fear is that when I’m trying to do whatever I can to stop and turn away from it, it’s still not enough and that God won’t help me until I go to confession! :( Can someone elaborate on the thing with God not being able to live in your heart and the diff of that and asking God for help?