Hi all I have a story and want to know if I'm wrong or should I be forever damaged.

So since I was born my mother never been a mother to me she gave me up as a new born to her best friend cause her friend thought she couldn't have kids of her own , so as I reach age five the lady who I thought was my momma gave me back to my momma when she finally started having her own children , so now here I am with my real momma now living with her and as I was a little girl I used to see my mom get beat up really bad by my youngest siblings father so she ended up living in a shelter with us just me her and my baby brothers and a newborn she just had , so from there she took me to meet her momma which is my grandmother and when I came there I noticed my momma had way more children then I thought ,I had a bigger brother an another sister then she leave me there with them people , my grandmother had some more of her grandkids come live with her as well them other grandkids was teenagers , one of them used to moleste me everyday! I grew up in a world of sinners all around me , my mother didn't notice all I wanted was her she was even on drugs crack at the time now so everything my grandmother brought us she stole it from us to sell for a high with no fucks giving , out of all her kids who was there they didn't care for her even when my grandmother said don't let her in the house no more ,I still did it behind my grandma back , so years go by now she back in the house living with me my grandma and us so now her duty is to walk me to school everyday since my grandma couldn't do it so as I'm passing this building that one of my classmates live in with her mom and twin sister my friend told me that the place helped they mom ,I was thinking drugs so when I took my mom there and told her this place can help us help her get off of drugs she started crying and she said that place is a apartment shelter for single mothers only and after that she told me she is gonna get help so a week go by and she sit all her kids down and had a heart to heart talk with us she said it will be a long time before she ever see us again she going to get help so she can be the mother we need her to be , so yrs go by no mom still yet but we went to visit as she progressed in the program, meanwhile I've been molested to the moon and back by her nephew but I still haven't said nothing yet cause I didn't no any better, but not once has she asked me if he touched me knowing they type of person is was now because my auntie caught him in the closet with her 6 yr old daughter and she beat his ass and removed her daughter from the house I'm pretty sure my momma knew about that , so now im gonna fast forward my momma never did done or brought me anything for my bday or nothing I still loved her regardless unconditional love she never ever ever done shit for me ,then I find out I got another sister and she only 10 mo apart from me whole time she was living with my father who I never met parents ,I never knew I had a dad , my whole life been rob from me so now I'm grown and my momma on her feet she has the best of everything house and all bands in the bank everything , but I don't know what's her problem she won't buy me nothing she won't ever tell me happy bday ,she wont answer my calls she wont let me come see her or she wont come see me either , she didn't tell me merry Christmas or happy new year , out of all her kids I'm the only one who don't have a family and why cause her nephew molested and raped me when I was a child he burned me without anybody noticing I had the std so long it messed my tubes up and she sitting here acting like I done something to her , she just promised me she was gonna see me yesterday for the first time, i got dressed did my make up and was waiting from morning to night for her to call me she never did but guess who did ,her grandkids they was sending me msg like hahaha we with our grandma we at Walmart shopping , hahaha so i texted back and said okay hopefully y'all can stop by one day and see me and left it as that , so since this morning i texted my mother and asked her why she do me like that she never responded and still ain't respond to none of my texts....its just sad how my life turned out to be i was a happy person once and that was only when my grandma was alive even tho that stuff happened to me while living with her , she still was my angel she was very old and tried her best trying to raise children that wasn't hers as she was sick like that and she just started walking again cause she jumped out a forth floor window from a fire and she had my oldest brother living with her at that time.... Should i leave her alone and just give up and face the fact that i don't or will never have a mother cause she keeps me depressed and stressed when i never done nothing wrong to her but loved her even tho all that happened to me , even tho I'm grown i feel like she owe me something since its so hard for me to have something of my own cause her fucked up life choices cost me my future..