Ok so I know getting pregnant is a blessing and no baby of mine would be unwanted. I just felt like I needed to share my fear... my husband and I have a 16 month old son and he also has an 11 year old son from first marriage. I wouldn’t exactly call our marriage a happy one. He is a difficult man and very stubborn and controlling. We have some wicked fights and I’ve on many occasions wondered why I’m in this marriage. Any way we love our son and I am a stay at home mom, I do everything in the home front and baby front. EVERYTHING. We had a huge fight on my birthday (of course) so that sucked...then a couple days later we had “make up sex” he knew I would be ovulating any day and he “oops” didn’t pull out completely in time. Now a little over a week later I’m beginning to feel the same way I did when I first got pregnant. Except this time I’m very scared. I’m not sure our marriage would survive another child. He has so much anxiety with our son, another one I swear would push him over the edge. At the same time, he didn’t pull out, and he always does. We went 6 years straight with no accidents and then the one time he didn’t pull out, whelp we have our son. What the heck was he thinking?? I’d love more kids but he makes the idea of it seem utterly terrifying 🤦🏼‍♀️