In 2018 I was pregnant twice... and had no baby. In 2019, I will stop focusing on what I’ve lost and am missing and look towards a better future. I will take better care of my health and stress less. I deserve happiness and healthiness. I will be a mom, a damn good mom one day. But for now, I will keep trying to be the best wife and someone that would make my angel babies would be proud of. I’ve heard that when you stop trying and stressing it happens, so we shall see.