I'm not saying I'm not thankful that everyone around me that wants their family-whetger they know it or not-gets pregnant. I'm just saying it's hard for me to see that and not be jealous. Between my husband and myself- we have 18 nieces and nephews, our few groups of friends have babies, and literally almost all of our Facebook's friends are announcing expenctings. I just want to know why it seems so easy for everyone around me to have kids. There are somewhere between 30 and 40 babies on my timeline or soon to be babies. I feel horrible for even writing something that seems so awful but no-one around me understands..