I wish you the best in life. I wish you all of the happiness. But I’m done trying to be how you want me to be. I will never be like that. I just want happiness Dad. I kind of wish I had told you about your grandson even though he passed away inside of me. I wonder what you would of said...

I used to try to do anything to please you but I give up. I don’t resent you but I do miss you. I’m sorry I could never be perfect. I’m sorry I stopped going to college. I’m sorry I got depressed. I’m sorry I became an alcoholic. I’m a year sober now. But that’s still not enough for you to talk to me again. You always need more.

I will always love you though.