So today was the first day Kailey started crying when I had to put her back in the isolet. I could only hold her about ten minutes because she had to go back under the phototherapy light again. It was really, really hard to have to leave her there crying. I couldn't even stay after putting her back becaus technially the NICU was closed and I wasn't supposed to be there in the first place. I just got lucky that her doctor happened to let me in for a few minutes. I think he did that because I won't be able to hold her for a few days while she's under that light. I feel lucky to have been able to see her at all today, but then again, leaving her behind crying and upset was just awful.