Heartbroken 💔

Me & one of my brother's best friends were talking, & one then one day I asked him out & he said "you wanna date me?".. I said "yes, you make me laugh, you're adorable & you're a little bit crazy.. Why wouldn't I wanna date you?". He said well we don't really know each other & I said well thts why you go on dates & he said it might take a while cuz he hardly know each other & I said so we'll get to know each other & he said well I'm complicated, so good luck. I asked wat he meant & he said exactly wat tht means & blah blah blah & tht he never knows wat he wants. I said I know wat I want & blah blah blah & all tht & then he said well I just don't want you to get your hopes up because I don't know if I wanna relationship right now.. He said tht twice so after the second time I say, "tht translates into I so wanna relationship but not with you ? Doesn't it?" & he goes "no lol, I think you're pretty cool & we can talk & I go you think I'm pretty cool ? He said yes & then I go how about just pretty lol no don't answer tht but he said I think you're pretty but I'm being careful & I said aww thank you but you didn't have to answer tht but being careful of wat? He said of not hurting you. But then one day he said tht me & him should get to know each other & I agreed & it was going good & he told me tht I'm pretty you know instead of hot or sexy (which is good) & he said tht I'm perfect how I am. But this is taking forever & I'll just cut to the chase now... On the 9th of this month he told me tht hes talking to this girl & he doesn't wanna ruin it. & I told him wow, can't say I'm surprised at tht cuz I heard it before & it doesn't feel food. It said its nothing you did just life happens. I said its just disappointing because I thought you were different. He said different then wat & I just go nothing, its stupid & he didn't say anything back. & I had heartbreaks before but this ones the worst. Telling me tht he doesn't wanna hurt me, & making me feel like I'm the only girl in the world & he just does tht.. Putting salt in my eyes would be less painful but now i think love relationships & simply talking to someone is stupid & I'm stupid & I also feel like I'm gonna be known as the crazy dog lady. It just stings because I really thought he was different & tht he could of been the one. But I don't want any one of my brothers to find out because I don't want them to beat him up cuz I don't want him to hate me & I know tht probably sounds crazy but Idk I kinda feel like he is the one but obviously not right now. Idk... But sorry tht this was so long & if it kinda sounds stupid but, you know.. Kinda felt like a place where I could rant.😭😭