I want to cry

I’m so sad for a reason that sounds really stupid. Cause I’m basically in love with a dead person. Freddie Mercury is literally the “Love of My Life”. I know he’s gay but he’s sooooooooooooooo beautiful and I love his personality. Anyway I get really sad about him being dead obviously but I can never cry and I hate it. I can’t cry about literally anything. It sounds weird but are there any ways to cry? I just want to feel something.