Am I the only one who felt guilt after orgasm from porn?

Like my husband is working out of town a lot and sometimes when he’s away I get really horny because of missing him

So sometimes when I cannot hold it I’ll just watch a quick good porn and orgasm It felt good at the moment but then I always felt guilty or that uncomfortable feeling afterwards.

Is this normal? I just miss my husband and his dingdongs 😭😭😭😭😭😭