Don’t know what to do

2 miscarriage one in 2016 one n 2018 two days after Christmas! What can I say my boyfriend stayed with me through both! But things change last week! He don’t wanna touch me he usually text me to see how I’m feeling for the past week he didn’t text me! He did show up for my grandpa birthday party Saturday but he was acting weird I didn’t invite him! His mom and my grandma is best friends!! We didn’t talk much just hello hi and that’s it!!! I don’t know if he’s traumatized by this or what I can’t really tell I cried actually every night I don’t feel I’m good enough being a mother! I feel heartbroken lately I’ve been thinking to cut him off clean and move on but I can’t it really hurts!