Some days it just hits me so hard

As I sit here crying I just can’t help but think what my baby would have been like what he/she would have looked like, personality, everything. It’s been almost a year since my miscarriage and I still cry suddenly I still can’t go to baby showers or be happy for anyone pregnant. I honestly want to feel normal again. I want to be like my ex it’s so easy for him to move on but I just can’t I love her with every ounce of my heart. Olivia Noell my love my baby.