Wtf is happening

You guy I feel like I’m throwing away my relationship with my daughters father/ boyfriend he feels like I’m making him the bad guy when all I want is some appreciation, I’m home all day with our 4 month old and I feel trapped like I’m drowning in my own misery and unappreciated at the same time he’s feels a way because I wouldn’t give him sex we live with his siblings and they do come to our room to see my daughter they were still awake so my main issue is privacy I want to be with him in my heart but I also feel like I’m done idk what to do I don’t know how I truly feel postpartum has consumed me as a person help me the gif is a mood smh