Well another month has passed and another month im out of the game. TTC #1 for over 12 months now and it isnt getting any easier. There is nothong stopping us had every test available. Were just unlucky. But when all my friends around me are pregnant i cant hwlp but feel a piece of my loses all hope. I am fighting the tears. I told my partner today that ive mentally had enough and want to go back on birth control, as i cant see us being parents. I feel at being 38 ive left it too late now.