First time?

I’ve been with my SO for about a year, and since the beginning, he’s wanted to do anal.

I’ve literally had to work myself up to it.

The other night, I let him. Had to stop midway because it hurt, bad.

And I’m self conscious about it, especially when he sticks his finger in it when he goes down on me.

Because, like it’s a bootyhole. They’re not suppose to smell like roses. Or something. But, could anyone give me any advice? 😂😂