Feeling Disgusting

Does any other woman feel totally ugly and gross weeks after having the baby. You feel like your husband is looking at every other woman (even though he isn't) simply because you gained a lot of weight while pregnant. It's only been 20 days since I had my baby and I gained 70lbs this time. I am not losing large amounts yet and I feel so ugly šŸ˜”šŸ˜”