Anxiety

Kota • 💑 10.09.15 - 🤱🏼08.29.19

I am hoping I am not alone in this. Sorry it’s kinda long...

I have wanted to be a mom my entire life. It’s all I’ve ever really wanted out of my life. I went off birth control over a year ago and the last 5 months we tracked everything there was to track trying to have this baby alongside taking clomid. On December 27th when I got my BFP - it was the best day of my life. (Probably tied with my wedding day 🥰)

I’m 6w6d now.

And I’m terrified.

I have had anxiety my whole life. But this is another level. I am scared of everything. I am so sick and I’m terrified it will last my whole pregnancy. I’m scared of miscarriage or anything being wrong with the baby. And if I even think about the baby being here - that’s when the real anxiety starts. Can we actually raise a human? 😰

I feel like a horrible person. I have wanted this for so long and instead of being happy I spend all my time worrying and being scared.

Any other new moms feel this way? Any advice from veteran moms?

Thanks all ❤️